Postpartum Depression: Part 1 Of My Story

It was a Sunday morning.

A snowy one.

One where my husband had to go to work.

I was 4 months postpartum and at the height of postpartum depression… But I didn’t know that.
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I hated myself.

I hated living.

I hated sleeping.

I hated waking up.

I hated going to work.

I hated everything…

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A Letter To The 4th Trimester Mom In December

I’ve had two 4th trimesters that went into the hustle and bustle of the holiday season.

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But what they didn’t know was that being close to him, holding him, was the only way I felt safe.

All of this ‘abuse by obligation’ during the holidays would manifest in extreme postpartum depression by 4 months postpartum. … More A Letter To The 4th Trimester Mom In December

Egg Drop Soup

This is a great soup for all ages and genders, but it’s specifically designed with a postpartum mama in mind because it is rich in protein.  It is high in B vitamins (Shiitake Mushrooms, HELLO).  And the ginger, red and black pepper are naturally warming which her body needs in this season.  Keeping a 4th trimester mama HOT is vital to her healing. … More Egg Drop Soup

After Birth Recovery Soup

Do you know a pregnant woman? Chances are you do. And, chances are that that woman will be left alone and forgotten in her postpartum period. Western culture is sorely lacking in the skill of mothering a mother. I hope that, with the help of thousands of you, we can begin to change that! … More After Birth Recovery Soup

How I Avoided Postpartum Depression A 5th Time

There was a day that I was angry. I used a pair of jeans to pull across my shoulders as an outlet for the anger and frustration. After I’d fatigued my muscles doing that, the legs of those jeans found their way around my neck…

I was choking myself.

And the voice in my head said it was ok. Everyone would be relieved if I were gone. I wouldn’t be a burden anymore. My children’s emotional health would be better because they wouldn’t have a sick Mommy anymore… … More How I Avoided Postpartum Depression A 5th Time